The last time I did a 10-day Vipassana silent meditation retreat was 12 years ago, after I had broken an engagement with a wonderful man. I was lost and confused about what I had wanted to do after essentially disappointing a person who loved me so much. But I knew it was the right thing to do as I knew we did not want the same things.
Earlier this month, I did another Vipassana 10-day silent meditation retreat again, to restabilize my emotions after I had been left suddenly by a sweet human. Although I am greatly disappointed with how he left me, I understand the reasons that he left me. It was not because he was a bad person, nor was I a bad person or was it because of the stars, the moon or mercury retrograde.
I realized that the reason this relationship fell apart was the same reason all the other things in my life thus far have not worked out. I was not in integrity with myself.
